Been a while since I’ve had time to sit down to write. Noticed that my last post was on the 17th of March. Amazing! I should be doing some work now but it’s already so late, and my brain is exhausted I figured I’d be more productive in the morning after I’ve had a good rest.
So an update since my last post.
Health wise, I think I’m struggling each day. Everyday is a struggle to stay awake and churn out as much work as I can and not waste any time. Of course sometimes I’ll be super productive but at other times, it just becomes ridiculously impossible. Had my Gastroenterologist appointment on Thursday and he wasn’t happy with the way my iron levels were going up. So together with an endoscopy and colonoscopy, he’s ordered an iron transfusion for me as well. Basically that just entails a full day in hospital from 7am to 5pm because he says the iron transfusion itself takes 4 hours. I wounder if they will berate me if I brought my work with me to do as I should be resting.
Before I used to wish for just one day in hospital so I could have an excuse to rest but now that that has happened, I don’t think I could actually do it. As with everything this year anytime I’m not doing any work, I feel guilty. I start to think of all of the work ahead that I have to do. I start getting overwhelmed and panic and can’t do any work. It’s a vicious cycle and I need to break it somehow.
The only thing that is keeping me going is the knowledge that this is important to my career and it’s something that I truly want to do. I want to make a difference in the world for people living with diabetes. This pushes me along. Pushes me along living without any money, sitting 12 hours in front of a computer all day to get as much work as I can done and meet deadlines. At the same time looking after myself.
Phew…
Another thing that is keeping me going is my band, Western Region Concert Band that I play in. Every year we put on a show called Last Night of the Proms and each year we have a special guest artist. This year, it was announced today that we have the great Leo Sayer! So exciting, so all of you have to come along! Upon coming home to tell my family, funnily enough, of all the people, it was my dad who exclaimed “Leo Sayer! I know him! Wow!!!” haha He was very impressed. Another piece that we just got last week is Selections from “La Cage Au Folles” and the music is simply amazing. My sister was nice enough to buy me the soundtrack and I’m absolutely in love with it. Loving the orchestration of the music! Such a mood lifter listening to it 🙂
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